I took the pills, I took the advice
I feel like I am barely existing right now. I’m so exhausted all the time. Mostly physically, but mentally I’m running on empty as well. Just like a Jackson Browne song…
I’m still healing. It seems to be getting better, but I think that has an impact for sure. Working is tedious. It’s hard to stay focused. I’m now on 3 different anti-depressants and I’m just kind of drifting along on autopilot, it seems.
Additionally, I just was forced to switch estrogen delivery systems. I had been on injections for the last 7 months ago. However, as of late, injectable estradiol is not available. It’s on a national backorder. For reals, It’s on the FDA website and everything. So now I’m using patches. But I’m only being prescribed half the dose that most people I know. I have to wait a month and go have my levels checked. That could be impactful to my energy levels.
Mentally, I have the stress of a divorce, trying to build a new relationship, and dealing with all the crap in my office. These days, when HR calls me, I have to ask which complaint we’re talking about. Still waiting on some movement from EEOC/Fairness Ordinance complaints that I filed, as well.
Used to be, when I was stressed, I would drink. I drank a lot for a number of years. Mostly alone, at home. Lately, I don’t even drink. I just want to sleep. Or watch TV.
This will all come to pass. I hope. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
2 thoughts on “I took the pills, I took the advice”
((HUGS)) Hang in there. Love you.
I get pretty indignant on your behalf about the work situation. I’m kind of your Norma Rae on this bullshit. Very hopeful your complaints will be taken seriously. You’re not just fighting the good fight for yourself; this could set some precedence for other trans people in the workplace as well. I’m staying hopeful your filed complaints will effect some positive changes for you and wake the hell up your HR and management…as always, thank you for sharing. Big hugs